Yes, I still exist. It has been three months since my last post, yet surprisingly not a week has gone by without my thoughts wandering to potential posts.
So why then, may some of my readers filed missing persons reports? Life has sort of gotten in the way. Actually that may be a lie – it’s more like I’m having a, ‘oh-my-gosh-is-life-passing-me-by?-Quick-take-every-opportunity-while-you-can’ moment. Typical. Because when you go through one of those moments, it’s great for the first month.
Your schedule becomes busier, you have less time to sit around and ponder the life you want and more time to feel like your going out to find it. You begin to see how this might all come together for you – that internship gives you great experience for a future job, that time in the gym is having you feeling your fittest.
It’s not until you reach about the three month mark where you simply stop and think, “What have I done”. Things build up, I’m trying to juggle two jobs, an impending loss of one of them, assignments, my internship, the gym, all my football and give my boyfriend and family the attention they deserve. And God knows I don’t have a social life.
You want me to say it? You wanna hear it?
I’VE TAKEN ON TOO MUCH.
I said it. I hope you’re happy, you sadistic reader you.
But the purpose of this post was not a rant as the title lets on. It’s more of a victory post. Because as I have literally just proven, I’m still here.
I’ve taken on so much and damn, I’ve done it all well. I have survived every due date, deadline and leg day that 2016 has thrown at me so far. I am connected to my family more than ever and have an appreciation for my own relationship that grows every single day. My boyfriend and I are both driven and supportive and together, we’re unstoppable.
So here’s to more posting. Here’s to making time again to let loose those angels and demons residing in my mind. Here’s to every single person reading this who has struggled with the joys that they burden themselves with.
And here’s to the ocean for always teaching me the most humbling rule of all.